Be Bold

My day was characterized by a simple calculation. PJ's + Cookie Dough = A really great time. Everyone knows that I'm random... Why else would a write a blog entitled 'Randomness'? So tonight because I was bored and because Michaela P was on fb then I sent her a msg. Her response lead  me to whip up a batch of cookie dough in like 5 seconds flat leap into my car in my pj's and beautiful hobo robe (did I tell you that I found the original one with a hood? I'm loving it!) then drive 5 minutes to Michaela's house. It was the epitome of randomness. That was the reason I loved it. I chowed down on cookie dough and talked to my mate and at the same time got up to some mischief via facebook... That leads me to quote the title of tonights post 'Be bold'. I was bold when I knocked on the door in my PJ's and I was bold when I came into the house and realised that someone who I went to primary school with was there. I didn't retreat I went up to her and said 'hi' although I did have to explain my PJness. Because it really isn't normal for someone to venture outside of the house wearing PJ's (although I wish it was the social norm).

I loved the final performance of CMC tonight. I acted appallingly... Honestly... I laughed when Jamie tripped up so I was cracking up when I said 'you Monsieur Morrel can leave' all angstily and wait it gets worse. You see when I died I cracked up because Sophie cracked up and then some guy in the audience said 'she's trying not to laugh'... That just made me laugh even harder. Lucky for me I was good when I was performing for my fam...

Back to the title. 'Be bold'. I uttered those lines so often to Michaela tonight when we were talking to people on FB. I think it has almost become my slogan. I lived for a very long time as the quiet one and recently I've found my voice. So I really want to use it to it's full potential. The only way that I can do that is through the use of boldness. Hence the slogan.

I feel like it means more than simply say crazy things. It means make a decision and don't second guess yourself. I have a rotten habit of doing that. I have a chocolate bar and then halfway through I think 'hmm perhaps I shouldn't have done that....Mum do you want the rest?' Whereas by following my slogan I would follow it to the up most. In order to do that I need to finish that chocolate bar and then not feel guilty. Feel satisfied. View the silver lining and realise that by eating that chocolate bar I gained some valuable insulation AND I released valuable endorphins into my body. Although this week finally I'm going to go for a week without sugar. I can do it I just know it. I'm going to be bold about it. I've had enough of sugar so this is my crash diet leading up to the ball... Although it probably won't work and crash diet has all kinds of terrible connotations of bulimia and anorexia and I like food and I don't like vomiting. This is more about returning to my natural splendor in that I like eating well since it means that I similarly feel good.

I need some feeling good. Although I loved the hugs that I got today. They felt so good. I made a conscious decision to be ME and I followed through I followed my new philosophy and I feel great for it. Don't ever go halfway. I think my time doing CMC has taught me a great number of things which I'm beautifully grateful for. Perhaps I should make a list of them...
1 If someone really cares then they'll try and continue a conversation even if it is completely random eg about clouds.
2 A smile often means that someone has a good heart. I love it when people have good hearts. I believe that everyone is good on the inside though.
3 Numbers can often code for something far more interesting. They tell a story.
4 You're first reaction is not always the best one. Sometimes the reason for a non occurrence is purely because of incorrect timing.
5 Laugh about screw ups instead of crying... You can't change it. What is done is done...
6 I love introducing people to Frightened Rabbit (probably one of my favorite bands)

More than those things. It has given me an understanding of different people....aka scots boys. They are in a league of their own. It was by spending time with these boys that I learnt what a range of people there are and that you can't let the voice of the masses speak for the individual.